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“We all hear voices in our heads and have visions erupting out of our brains that disrupt our daily routine and beg us to tear ourselves away form the mundane life. Something stirs deeply within is, calling us out, inviting us to pursue and discover that which we do not know. All of us are called to a place we have not been. Our lives were always intended to be journeys into the unknown. The invitation is both personal and mystical. No one else may fully understand what you are being called to. You may not even fully understand. The path you must walk may appear to others as strange or unreasonable, but you know there’s more going on than meets the eye. The signs are all around you but even more within you. You are being pulled forward. You are having visions of a life you couldn’t possibly create alone. You are no longer satisfied with where you are, and no you are in a quest for where you do not know. Your soul craves to become, and you will never be satisfied with less” - “Soul Cravings” Edwin McManus.
I don’t think i could have described where i am at more accurately than that. Edwin McManus, in his book Soul Cravings, discusses how once our hearts are stirred, it is impossible to quiet it. When there is nothing going on, we become restless. It’s because we have seen a glimpse of how things could be and we are no longer satisfied with the life we are currently living. Granted, this is a really dangerous way to go through life. It has to be balanced, so that you dont fall into “the grass is always greener” mind set. Because then, no matter where you are, you’re never satisfied.
Right now, i am in this place of transition. I have started my new job which I am enjoying, but it is taking up a lot of my time as i travel to Chicago for 2 weeks for training, and as i adjust to working to 40 hours a week. I immediately think of the john mayer lyric “welcome to the real world, she said to me, condescendingly.” And while i am currently wading through all this new change, something keeps tugging at my heart. What about Costa Rica? What about Costa Rica? And the more i try to push it aside, the more obvious its become. I have decided that i am going to have a full time job and try to launch this non-profit. And that’s what i need to be doing. I didnt think it would be that difficult. It is. But as my job becomes more and more routine, i find more and more time to work on it.
So, as for an update for where i am. I currently have all of the items that the ladies have made and i am in the process of taking photos of them and putting them on my temporary store front which is located on etsy.com. I am also trying to figure out who i am going to hire to build my website, or if i’m going to do it myself. I keep saying to myself, Rome wasn’t built in a day. Yes, i realize that. However, thats also a really great excuse not to do anything, too.
My goal is to get all of the photos taken and uploaded by next week. I am spending the next week of my life in Chicago for training for work. But I am someone that sticks to their word, I said that i would be setting up a non-profit in Costa Rica and that’s exactly what I will be doing. But, contrary to the American way, not everything is done instantly. Setting up a non-profit that will become established and help people for years to come, needs to be done correctly. And not for a second do i believe that God doesn’t know what I am doing, what He is doing, and what’s going on. He knows i would be sitting here, writing this. He knows if I am going to get the photos uploaded when i wanted to. And most importantly, He knows that there isnt a day that goes by when i dont think about my vision and what I am trying to accomplish and it stirs something deep in my soul, and it compels me to act.
